i cant take it anymore.
like seriously.what else is she expecting from me?
am i not good enough?. or am i fuck up?
she's throwing temper at me. and i had to swallow everything and please her.
she hangs up my call. and yet i called back.
she's always ignoring me, and yet i send her a sms every now and then to make sure she's alright.
i have done everything. given up my pride. given up my guy's pride,ego whatever shit
just for her.
AND i am like so not appreciated. not at all.
i cant do anything.
people who know me , knows that my temper is damm bad,
you dont treat me well.. i will just ask you to fuck off.
but not for her -slsy.
i do what i can to please you. to make you happy. see you smile.
does it mean that when you are stress or upset you can push people around?
have you thought of them? their feeling?
did that every cross your mind?
or is this part of ruining our relationship.?
giving me hope. then you dash all of them.
pulling me higher and let me fall.
leaving me hanging and not moving on
you think this all gonna work.?
no no no you are so wrong.
not that i am expecting anything in return.
not anything more then just caring for others
how they feel.
do you treat your own frens like that?
do you?
or am i not as important as THEM?
seriously i dont think so.
stop doing all these. it will doyou and me no good.
you wana me to give up?
i am telling you i wont.
for any other factors i dont know.
i really dont know.
you are keeping so many things from me.
OKIE . NOTHING IS EVER FAIR in this fucking world
nothing gonna work and go smoothly.
will you only start to regret when i am gone.?
like one fine day you find out that i am dead or what.
seriously. people just dont treasure what they have.
only to regret.
i had many regret.far too many.
i've hurt alot many many, this is my KARMA.
people who reads my blog. you may be the one i am refering to.
1 thing i know for sure . if i give up on you(slsy). that will be another regret.
the world is fucked.
full of suffering. KNN.
i fucking wana die. seriously.
i need drug to numb myself.
to keep myself away from this world full of misery.
everything i do is for you.
OKIE i know this post is gonna cause a effect. a real BAD ONE.
i think she will go" OKIE FINE SINCE YOU THIINK THAT WAY THEN SO BE IT."
the thing here is that.. i am not trying to tell anyone how much i am suffering.
but just to voice myself out.
I DONT MIND> I DONT MIND. I AM WILLING TO DO ANYTHING FOR YOU ANYTHING.
i love you too much. too much. i am gonna love you more
-memories of dam.marina barrage.amk hub.keep running in my mind-
